I just wanted to start this off by saying thank you to everyone for giving me this time. Didn't know I would be gone for so long. I'm no longer sick like I was but I'm overloaded with stress. My depression is out of control so much that my anti-anxiety and depression meds are barley helping at all. I have to be on constant alert and ready to help my family at any moment. My grandmother's heart has been having issues. My grandfather was in the hospital with uncontrollable bleeding that they never fingered out. (it just stopped on its own) My mothers surgery was suppose to be 3 maybe 4 hrs but it turned into 8 because of all the issues they ran into once inside. It was worse than what they thought. And now I know my bf is having some health issues we weren't aware of until he had his physical. Oh and my aunt just had a double mastectomy to save her life. My father is like the only one not sick. I cant imaging the kind of stress hes under. Both his parents and wife are having issues....damn. He needs my help now more then ever. In the words of my grandmother "Our family is falling apart." So am I back? Kinda. I wanna start drawing and posting again, even if its slowly. Ill be checking messages more often and trying to stay more connected.